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Woo hoo! The countdown is on. 48 hours to show time. I can't wait for the show. It will be fun, but I am ready to get it over with. I am exhausted! I can't wait for our cast party though-it will be a hoot
Happy Holidays to all!!
Oh what a day! So anyway the holidays are right around the corner. Things have not been easy the last few months....all I want to do is relax and have a good time. But no, someone in my family always has to b_____about something (I am gulity of it myself)but geese, come on people where's the christmas spirit.. Hello! Can anyone here me? just chill~ everything will be fine. But does anyone ever listen to me in my family? No, I am just waisting my breath....
Ok, I feel much better! Just had to get that off my chest!
well, here we are again. I keep starting and stopping. No more! New life is unfolding. My Story is out....I don't have to hide anymore. I can have the life I want-I deserve that life without all the crappy stuff in the way. That stuff is holding me back. I am going to throw it out the window. Life can be a b____ at times. I need to just learn to roll with the punchs and know that there are people out there who care and want the best for me and want me to succeed in everything I do.
So to the good news...I got a job. Not in my felid or what I was even really looking for but I am willing to run with it for a while and see what happens. I am even thinking about going back to school in January. I want to do something I am tired of sitting on my a___ and feeling sorry for myself. I want to be happy. I have got a long road ahead....
Things have been a a bit crazy...but I am doing all right.
I am truly blessed to have many amazing people in my life... I know I will make it and ond day things won't be so hard
I just found out that my youth director is leaving and I am really in shock. I will miss her so much and am not sure what I am going to do. I just hurt a lot. More later...
There are many hopes and dreams that I have. A lot of them I have never shared. I did not feel I could. I did not feel any support and I was tired of being laughed at. So I hid a lot.
One of my biggest dreams is to go back to school and major in special Ed specializing in emotionaly disturbed. That is my passion and where my heart is. I went to school and majored in something just because that is what everyone thought I should do. It is time, past time for me to let my hear guide me and not let people sway me..
I would love to start singing and playing the piano again. Music is such a big part of my life and I wish I had not given it up. I would love to get in the recording studio. Just to get back to writting even it never goes any futher. Music is such a healing release for me. There is such a power and a gift in music Esp. if you are willing to write from your hear and let your feelings and expirences guide you. Who cares if no one ever picks it up, or it never becomes a #1 single(although that would be nice!) When you write from your heart none of that maters.
Later in my life I would love to go to Africa and help with the AIDS crisis. There is so much devstation over there. Even though my life is hard at times, I take a step back and I realize I have so much. I can give a little back.
I have a great life. Sure, it has been crappy right now. And I have had a God-awful past., but I can always start over. Start right now. From this day forward, I can start to create the life I want, not the life other people think I should have. Because after all this is MY life and years later I want to be a ble to say I had a good fulfilled life. I want to be happy with what I did and what I accomplished. I want to make a difference in someones life.
More later,tears....